there's so much love clenched within our fists.

back are the times where i would stay at home, do a little bit of cleaning and then i would take more than one nap.


so once i'm done posting this, i'll go take a shower and then i'll hit the pillow soon after.


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in other news, i am doing fine.


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in other other news, i could've been better.

so i was over at Bras Basah today after choir pract, and we were looking for Cat Socrates (featured in a small article in 8 Days a few weeks back). i brought her there to look at old-school looking tin toys and they were really pretty and nolstagic! reminded me of that toy robot my cousin ken used to have when we were kids. 


what really caught my eye was the beautiful notebooks and organizers and collection of indie CDs. the notebooks were very affordable, chic and fashionable! i even bought one for my mum lol, and i'm thinking of getting the red-&-white The Time Machine one the next time i'm in the area. then i'll do real writing soon!


and omg, i couldnt believe the poster over the CDs section! i saw the new album from Aspidistra Fly on sale and i nearly fainted. it was like, BOOMZ in my head cus its the first ever full-length album. and i think im gonna rekindle my love for the dreampop genre of music soon. for those of you who dont know whats that, dreampop is music which is slow and there's people singing words you have no idea what its about and its very magical. gosh im ranting, and this is supposed to be a blog of a guy for chrissake.

i really want to get in touch with my artistic side again. with polaroids and stuff.

hmmm, with regards to work, some things have been set in motion.


big hugs for joy, you stay strong!



Google Chrome looks and works well on melanie, it's very smooth! go check out "chrome experiments" on your search engine to witness the power of javascript.


can't wait for sundaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.

tagged the guest list on FB already

i have gotta update before i forget everything.


a few sundays back, i went down to Chinatown with Guess Who and we had a great time at a HK dessert store and shopping for toys in a flea market. hugsss!


celebrated michelle's 21st with cherri, and wanying's yesterday.


sprung a birthday surprise for gerard earlier this week.


master sold me her old blackberry, whoohoo! now i have a really cool non-camera phone to parade around in camp!


celebrated mark's birthday with the usual. it was damn fun hahaha!


two days ago, pancakes and myself had dinner with the gang and then we headed down to mark's for movies. managed to catch The Boy in the Striped Pyjamas and Up. but amazingly sad stories. depressing, too.

but i really did have fun, even though it was 7 people cramming into a room. now we're just waiting for puddleofredwine to be free!


speaking of which, i've had really weird dreams about joy and me, and it all happens in HK. effing weird huh.


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photos will be up on facebook shortly!


oh btw, i'd like to thank sarah lael for getting me the iTunes Gift Card!


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this Sunday, Somewhere Only We Know.    (:

i think i've really stopped blogging as much as i used to do in the past. now most of my updates appear on Twitter.


today at michelle's 21st, i had  a good talk with cherri and i pretty much convinced myself that all guys are really hopeless when we do the things we do.


it's not like we meant to hurt you girls; it's just that we're all programmed to respond in a fixed, predetermined way during a situation.


i really should stop caring.

i had a horrible dream last night.


it was sorta field-trip kinda outing with many people i don't know who, but we were brought to an underground basement with cages and cradles of kids which we were told were orphans. i felt damn sad for the babies cus they were like barely 10 months old. it was so inhuman.


and then i dreamt of this baby girl with all the big smiles and stuff, but i noticed something wrong with her right eye cus she kept it closed. and when she finally opened it, i realized that she was born without a cornea in that eye. and then i got freaking depressed cus i couldn't believe what asshole would abandon such a sweet baby girl cus she's got a minor birth defect.


i woke up at 2.37am with tears in my eyes, and snot in my nose. the only thing that settled my raging soul was when i realized that it was just a nightmare. that didn't stop me from keeping awake when i also knew that in reality, children are being abandoned everyday, having no one to love. (okay it's not like i watch some documentary and knew that this was happening, but that's what orphanages are for right?)


i noticed that when i'm sick and down with fever, i dream about heart-wrenching things and i blog more than necessary.

today i realised something very peculiar.


some of you might know by now that i have a grandmother living in Hong Kong. so yeah, back to the story.


i was over at my maternal grandma's place today, feeling very bored and all. i can tell you straight in the face that i have no love for her, and when i address her as grandmother, it's just for namesake. i don't know her name, so i can't refer her that way. 


after i left the place with my family, i realized something very strange. for the whole time i was over at her house (roughly about 3 hours), i barely saw her for a minute. in fact, i think i only saw her for 40 seconds. and this is not the first time you know? 


on the other hand, i only get to spend a week or two with my paternal grandmother in a year, and yet i spend so more much time rather than just 1 minute. i talk to her, i show her photos of my friends, i have meals with her, she brings me to the laundromat, she brings me to places she brought me as a kid... and even though we converse in Teochew (something which i'm terrible at), we get along so well. with my other grandmother, although we understand each other perfectly clear cus we speak English, it's like we don't get the message.




i wish things were in reverse.

friday morning was a shitty time at work. someone's acting all childish again. so effing cute, if you weren't hitting your 30s.


then went back to jurong for the hari raya celebration. didnt take good photos this time around, didn't really bother also cus my mood was effed up.


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saturday morning was spent cleaning up my room. in the afternoon i met up with part of the spiritual team and we went for Novena. then went home, then went out for dinner at Ah Yat for lunar new year celebration. nothing much.


today i went for mass, nothing much happened also. choir came and went. came home, slept, watched Friends, had dinner. boring la, my life.

seriously, what's up? why's there a trend for people that i care for breaking up in the month of September?

my week in review:

got my hands on Halo 3: ODST. it's an amazing game. am really happy with how Bungie came up with new ways to waoh its audience with the same Havok engine used to create Halo 3. though you die a lot faster and don't jump as high as the Master Chief, i think the body armor is cooler. too bad there's no AI speaking to you from your helmet, else the game would be complete.


stayed over at ECP on friday night for hazel's birthday. it was good, yeah. sc taught me the "shocker", which is a lewd hand sign.


helped out with fundraising on sat night and sunday. had lots of fun.


waoh, that's all i have to say about my weekend.

had yet another awesome weekend!


aidan came over to stay on friday night. had breakfast with him on saturday morning. he's getting very naughty already! in the evening, went to mark's place with vincent and joy. had dinner at one of the coffeeshops, then went back to his place and into his room to chill for about two hours then we rock banded all the way till 3am. then he fetched all of us home.


woke up freaking early on sunday, went for mass. hanged out with daniel, tammy and wayne for a little while then dan and i continued hanging out as tammy went for a SCC lunch function and wayne went home. so anyway, dan and i chilled at uncle's simon's desk HAHAH.


later, we went to meet julie at jago close and we went to parkway to check out the new ipod touch..... which julie bought. AWESOMENESS!


then off we were to coffee club and we talked to julie about the ipod for a while. then we went back in the direction of holy fam and dan was picked up by his dad and julie accompanied me to holy fam cus had to pay steph the money. didn't see her but saw andrew instead and he did me the favor. took a cab to julie's place where i had rendang and devil's curry for lunch. was so glad with the food!


got home, sorted out my hard drives, watched Friends and District 9, slept.


got up today, went to holy fam for mass. saw the yc people and joined them for breakfast. later, i sat at 3 Sea avenue watching Friends while waiting for julie to tell me what time is good for me to go to her place to teach her how to use her new iPod touch. in the end she had to cancel. so i went home after i got a haircut.


played Bioshock for a while, unlocked 2 ahievements, then napped for an hour. had a good chat with morningmorningmorning on MSN. started watching some movies and Friends. now getting ready to sleep.

the past week has been really great! went to COMEX on friday, met hock chye and samuel and bought loads of games and signed up for mobile broadband. at night, charm picked me up and we had dinner with the altos at kallang leisure park. then we made our way down to Monfort Centre.

they screened Evan Almighty as planned, was ecstatic with my room mates! got to share the room with daniel and joel, which was freaking awesome la! wore my nametag with pride throughout. helped set up the rooms and the chapel. i loved the drapes that the spiritual team put up in the chapel. it was so beautiful and cold that i felt like sleeping in it.

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saturday morning came, andrew accompanied me to go fetch the firewood. both of us were disappointed with the quantity and the price they charged us church goers. had tummy ache when i got back. nearly panicked. daniel, raoul and i started soaking up the firewood. then i went back to my room to shower off the smell of kerosene, but that failed cus i sat next to julie and she exclaimed about the stench. had spiritual check-in, sharing sessions, lunch. then we learnt how to fold papers into crosses and i was so darn excited about it. later, daniel screened the video that he painstakingly put together on thursday night/ friday morning. i cried.

had sharing again, chose not to take part but instead i penned down all my thoughts cus i wasn't ready to share them yet. then we had Taize; i am so happy that i had a part to play! okay, so i might've accidentally fallen asleep and snorted a loud one before andrew elbowed me awake. BUT IT WAS FUN! i love the hymns the most.


after that, we had dinner and CAMPFIRE!! at first dan and i panicked cus the wood couldn't burn on its own. but after a quick prayer, it did eventually. most of the time i was poking and prodding the fire while dan single-handedly led the songs while andrew accompanied on the guitar. i'm so happy that the songs we identified really stirred the participants! it was also a hilarious sight to see them do the action songs. my fav song of that night was the friendship dance. 


i felt the ol' scout in me stir from his sleep, like a bear. we played three games, i laughed like crap when the girls tried to make ponytails of the guys. then i took part in the last game. i had to peel a lemon and then eat it before i won. considering the amount of chocolate i received as prize, it was worth it!


when campfire ended, we went to have a session with Fr Gerard. he's such a nice guy, just like Br Jean. after that, hung out for a bit before going down to the dining area to accompany fr gerry, gerard and julie while they drank wine and i had grapes. decided to go shower, then went up to hear andrew bang away at the ivory keys. i think he was very happy that night, especially near the end, when he was singing this very old school song.


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sunday arrived and i was already missing the place. fr gerry had a session with us, and it was very insightful cus even a guy like me could understand what he was going at. mass in the chapel was sweet, was exceptionally happy when raoul said he wanted to hug me HAHAHAH.


went back to our rooms, did some packing, then went down with dan to clear the firewood. had a petty squabble with someone, but what the heck. then we started taking photos and it was home for us.


i went back, played the xbox, and had a "heart attack" that night.


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on monday morning, i still had the heart attack. met up with spt to accompany him to Tekong. bumped into jeremy fly in mcdonalds. he was so cocky over his new iPhone, and i got so jealous i threw it away. 


being back in tekong brought back memories. 


in the evening, i went for mass with the choir people and it was like the post-retreat get-together! someone decided to go home with a guy than to be with us, huh! @pancakes


dinner was awesome, but i was very tired already. reached home about midnight.


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tonight was a great night, though we only chatted for about 20 minutes at the void deck, i really do treasure it. it's been so long since we've talked about serious things seriously. i hope now you have more time ah, for dinner on a weeknight and all!



i love these guys so much!

i'm tired. would've love to talk to you tonight. good night.

rough sketch. i'll do a proper one next time!

you know how the Internet is full of assholes? yo go to youtube, and then you watch a vid of a girl strumming the guitar singing her own rendition of Taylor Swift's Love Story. you think it's nice cus it's acoustic and you applaud her attempt. then you scroll down to view the comments and generally everyone leaves a encouraging comment (or even a vid reply). but there's got to be one bastard who will go like, "FUCK YOU, WHORE! YOU CANT SING SO JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP."


i just recalled a comment my friend made a few weeks back regarding the shortcomings of iPhones. read my comment.




jason tung is such an ass. not that my friend is any better. i bet these people are just too rich and they get an iPhone just to be in the "in" crowd but as they are such suckups, they can't figure how to use it and so they complain. i bet most of those people are loud airheads. like, those aunties you see in the wet market, trying to bargain with the vegetable seller to lower his prices by 20 cents. you know? how sometimes you can just generalize people into a category and you seriously don't give a shit if you're in the wrong.


tomorrow Apple's gonna release Snow Leopard, which is prolly gonna make another landmark in processing history. but fucking hell, how is an iPhone difficult to use? you got to be an idiot. and even if you weren't an idiot, be humble about it. i cant figure out how to use vista but do i go around saying it's a cursed thing?



i am in such a mood to bitch.

they actually HAVE firewood. all's well then!

sundays just keep getting more eventful!


firstly, my pair of sunglasses were accidentally passed on to the people from the 715am mass choir cus someone from the 915am choir (mine) thought that it was left behind by someone from the previous choir. so yeah. this is freaking confusing.


secondly, breakfast at the canteen saw many many of the jago close people! i'm so happy that the meeting took place there! hahah, such a rare occasion! but was kinda pissed when people started undermining old scout boys for their resourcefulness. seriously, it'll be great if we could all get firewood, cus thats what a healthy and meaningful campfire deserves. but it's also a hell lot more expensive and time-consuming as compared to the alternative that daniel, uncle lawrence and myself thought about. what if it rains like mad during campfire night? then our wood would be totally wasted and in the end we'll still have to resort to the alternative. we're not a school, we can't simply just stock up on wood and keep it for another campfire or donate it to another school. but anyway, i was just mad for about 2 seconds, then i realized that they sold kueh lapis.


choir practice was a whole load of fun, it's been a while since we had one. and i skipped the last one, so it was nice to get together with everyone and sing again. but it was freaking hot la. i should prolly become an alto, then not only would i get to sit under the air con, i won't be sabo-ed by gerard!


after that, m and i walked to parkway and it was much more cooling than the other days. had lunch at the japanese supermarket at the basement level, then we walked around for a bit before taking a cab to simei.


seriously, do i look that old. like, OLD? omg i'll never want to forget the convo we had with the taxi driver uncle, who was being lied like nobody's business! now i feel a bit bad. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.